vorrutyer: (I'm honestly having a time telling)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-16 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
Let it be, Sonia. Please.
vorbratta: (get your hands in it)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-16 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ that twists her up inside, and she can't even place why. she drops her gaze to their hands and swallows, some of the air going out of her. her shoulders slacken slightly. her voice is hushed, little more than an inward breath. ]

They're not always so civil with their prisoners.

[ she'd so much as told him that first time he'd come to see her. that leaves a bitter taste in her mouth. ]
vorrutyer: (really fucking stressed)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-16 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ His lips twist in an agonized grimace. ]

I know.
vorbratta: (this is how to be a heartbreaker)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-16 02:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ she leans against him, pressing her forehead to his arm and closing her eyes. she exhales slowly. ]

Nobody has laid a hand on me. I'm alright, Byerly.
vorrutyer: (punchable intensity)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ He closes his eyes. Her closeness is scarcely even a comfort. ]

I...wonder if that will...I worry, going forward.
vorbratta: (my heart is skipping triplets)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ sonia's voice is small. she keeps her eyes closed. ]

You think it might still happen.
vorrutyer: (sweaty)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
I think...they now know the handle they have on my loyalty.
vorbratta: (set it up and tear it down)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
...Leverage, you mean.
vorrutyer: (punchable intensity)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 01:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. I will do...anything if it means your welfare, Sonia.
vorbratta: (get your hands in it)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 02:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she clutches his arm tighter. she feels a little sick. ]

Don't -- [ do anything stupid. no, it's nothing stupid. her voice grows firm. ] I won't let it happen.
vorrutyer: (Backpfeifengesicht 3)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 02:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He looks at her, meets her eyes. He looks exhausted. He looks...a little frightened. ]

Won't let...what happen?
vorbratta: (my heart is skipping triplets)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ that frightened look in byerly's eyes chills her a little. it fills her with dread in return. she tightens her grip on him. ]

Anything that -- anything they might use as leverage against you. I won't just -- let them use you like that.

[ the cetagandans want her alive, she knows. she has a bigger bargaining chip than her dignity or welfare. ]
vorrutyer: (super broody)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
We have to be realistic.

[ He swallows, looking down at his hands. ]

It may not be so simple, that we can just...say no. I won't let it happen.
vorbratta: (you better be the first to run)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I know that.

[ that's the whole point of it. she knows that. she looks down at his hands, too, her throat tight. ]

But I'm not going to just -- accept that. I won't. [ her voice drops. ] Their imaginations are cruel. If I lay down and accept one fate, they'll come up with something more...creative.
vorrutyer: (sweaty)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
They're not...sadists, though.

[ He rubs at his face. ]

There's a purpose behind their actions. And so if there's no purpose to hurting you, they won't.
vorbratta: (set it up and tear it down)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 03:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia bites her lips together. ]

They've done plenty of cruelty to other Barrayaran women without purpose. [ she shakes her head. ] I don't know. Maybe you're right. But that doesn't mean I'll stand idly by.
vorrutyer: (serious)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ...True. But her rank will...surely protect her. Right?

He rubs at his face again. ]


Do you have a plan?
vorbratta: (this is how to be a heartbreaker)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 03:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ protect her, maybe. or merely use it to serve a point. sonia doesn't pretend to understand how their minds work. ]

Not...exactly. Just...an idea.
vorrutyer: (hung over 1)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Is it...something you can tell me?
vorbratta: (but never on your sleeve)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia's quiet for a while. she's sure he won't like it. she just unwinds her arm from around his and stares at her hands in her lap. ]

They won't ever threaten you with my life. They want to keep me alive. [ for the foreseeable future, anyway. ] It's the only thing I have any control over.
vorrutyer: (super broody)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 05:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His hands clench uselessly in his lap. ]

That doesn't mean you'll be safe.
vorbratta: (why do you pick me right back up)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not safe now. Neither of us are. You so much as said it yourself. I'm just as much at risk of -- anything as I was before.

[ she wants to reach for his hand, but he hardly seems comforted by her presence. but she can't quite bring herself to get up from his cot. her chest feels tight. she hates this. all the things olivia worked so hard to shield her from, and -- now she has to figure it out on her own. how to be that kind of brave. ]

There is no safety in this. No guarantee.
vorrutyer: (serious)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-17 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Sonia - I will...cooperate with them for your safety.

[ A beat. He takes a breath and looks over at her. ]

Unless you order me to do otherwise.
vorbratta: ('cause girls don't want)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-17 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia feels her breath catch in her chest. the idea that she could give byerly that kind of order, and that he would obey it, is overwhelming. it's terrifying. she wrings her hands together instead of reaching for his, desperation in her face that she'd been trying to hide before the fast-penta. before all of this had come out. ]

I just -- need you here with me. [ it's not an evasion, but she's not going to give him that order now. not...unless she really feels she has to. ] There was a grain of truth in what you said to me last time. That I'm alone here -- except for you. I don't want to be alone.