vorrutyer: (serious)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He closes his eyes. ]

That...depends on you. You have been only truthful with me. But I have lied to you.
vorbratta: (my heart is skipping triplets)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia swallows, bracing herself. this confusing web of lies has made her uncertain, unsteady, but if she can't trust him to be honest now, then nothing short of fast-penta would convince her. she knows that. her gaze is unwavering, an intensity sprouting from within that she'd sooner associate with her sister than herself. ]

About what? Tell me.
vorrutyer: (sweaty)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
About my identity. Who I am. What I was doing.
vorbratta: (okay okay dolore)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ after a moment, sonia nods. ]

Right, you're...ImpSec. And you came from the future, like Miles. [ something she should have been clever enough to put together for herself. she silently berates herself for it, but moves on. ] What else?
vorrutyer: (hung over 1)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. And - my mission.
vorbratta: (you better be the first to run)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia's eyes urge him on, willing him to look back at her. ]

What is your mission, then?
vorrutyer: (super broody)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 09:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He doesn't look at her. He can't. ]

To spy on Cetaganda. To appear a traitor to Barrayar so that they would accept me as one of theirs. To find other saboteurs amongst their number.
vorbratta: (okay dolore)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I know that now.

[ it doesn't quite come through her teeth, but she's not upset, not really. not any more than she has been this whole conversation. she'd sat through that entire fast-penta interrogation. ]

You were under orders to lie to me about it.
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[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
And I obeyed. Lied to you directly. Did nothing to ensure that it was...less cruel.
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[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
You were following orders.

[ after ten years of war, she understands that. it doesn't mean it never hurts, but she understands that much. painful as it had been, she...can't find it in herself to fault him for that. she shakes her head, pushing her hair from her face. ]

What could you possibly have done to soften that blow?
vorrutyer: (punchable intensity)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His eyes drop further. ]

I wish I knew.
vorbratta: (this is how to be a heartbreaker)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia's gaze drops too, her face softening. she steps in close again, reaches for his hand. her voice is thick, a little choked, but not forced. ]

There isn't anything, Byerly. There isn't anything anyone could have done. [ not a comforting thing to hear, she knows. especially after he's seen her angry and upset and beside herself over it. but it is, at least, the truth. ] Hating you wouldn't have made it any easier. There was nothing you failed to do.
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[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His lips tighten. Haltingly - ]

I've wondered - if I'd slept with you - if you'd have thought I was a scoundrel and nothing more...
vorbratta: (set it up and tear it down)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 10:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ watching byerly struggle like this is always so disconcerting, but she knows it means he's trying, very hard, to be honest with her. she doesn't quite answer him, but she reaches for his hand, lightly touching her fingers to his. ]

Is that why you said no?
vorrutyer: (hung over 1)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He's quiet a moment. Then: ]

No. Not - exactly.
vorbratta: (why do you pick me right back up)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia hovers slightly, throat working. ]

Because you care about me, then?
vorrutyer: (intent)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His head jerks to the side. An affirmation, perhaps. ]
vorbratta: (so let me tell you)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 10:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he's trying hard to be honest, but he's also trying not to answer, not completely. sonia lowers her voice, going gentle. ]

Byerly.

[ look at me. at least look at me so i can see it in your face. ]
vorrutyer: (I'm honestly having a time telling)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His eyes slide over to hers. His face is - vulnerable. As vulnerable as it gets. Desperate. Confirmation enough. ]
vorbratta: (my heart is skipping triplets)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 10:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, Byerly.

[ his name comes out as a sigh, but not a frustrated one. a little mournful, perhaps, but mostly...soft. she reaches up to cup his face in her hands, her eyes serious but achingly sincere. ]

It wouldn't have helped. Making me angrier with you wouldn't have helped. If that would have been your only reason... [ she sighs, because she wishes it wasn't, but that's selfishness on her part. ] Then I'm glad you didn't.
vorrutyer: (Backpfeifengesicht 3)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He leans slightly into her hand. Miserably: ]

I wanted to tell you. I argued - hard.
vorbratta: (why don't you show 'em your stuff)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she rubs her thumb over the rise of his cheek, her gaze soft, just holding him there, as though she's worried he may fall. she knows he wanted to tell her from the interrogation, but just how badly, she wasn't aware. ]

Trying to win an argument with Count Piotr is a bit like trying to bash your head through a brick wall. [ she knows. her voice is sympathetic, even slightly light. ] I'm sorry that you couldn't.

[ for his peace of mind, if nothing else, although...although sonia doesn't think she'd have been able to protect byerly any better if she had known. ]
vorrutyer: (sweaty)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 11:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry.

[ He shakes his head. ]

I'm - terribly sorry. And I'm sorry that I wasn't able to help you here.
vorbratta: (set it up and tear it down)

[personal profile] vorbratta 2017-03-14 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sonia holds his face gently even as he shakes his head, staying close, and then it's her turn to shake her head. ]

It's alright.

[ nothing is alright right now, not really. sonia still feels horribly shaken and sick, the memory of that awful rage byerly had goaded her into still hovering on the edge of her mind, and she's clinging hard to this, to byerly being as honest as he knows how and then some, because it's the only thing to hold onto. she feels like she might fall apart otherwise. ]

It's alright. It's -- we'll get through this together.
vorrutyer: (watchful)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2017-03-14 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes.

[ His fingers curl around hers. And he says, with painful honesty, for the third time: ]

I am yours, Sonia.

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